My dad just got home last night, and this is very sad to say but today I was already getting sick of him. How ridiculous is that!? I feel awful for feeling that way, but I can't help it!
We already got in an argument. It was extremely dumb too. I left my blender out and apart, you know how they have those sharp blades? Yeah. That's what started this all. He started yelling at me because it was out, and he asked me why it was apart so I told him I didn't know because I haven't used it in awhile and the last time I touched it, it was on the dryer rack thingy so whoever took it off of there set it on the counter with out putting it together. I mean, I know it's mine but I don't think I deserve to be yelled at when I didn't know it was like that! He continued to yell, get all angry, worked up, and what-not so I stood up for myself! I'm sorry but I'm not the type of person to sit back and get yelled at, I say something. Maybe I should work on that, especially because he is my father, BUT does that mean it gives HIM the right to yell and cuss at ME!? JUST because he is the PARENT!?? I definitely don't think so! I get so angry at him, because he tells me I am disrespecting him but I guess he doesn't see that he is disrespecting me also! I have told him before that when he yells and curses at me, that shows disrepect to me. Guess what he said? He said, I don't care. I am the parent. hfausdvbhiowulebvilasueb!?!?!?!? So sorry but that is not a good excuse to me!
-Okay sorry you had to listen to me bicker about this. But it happens a lot, and I really needed to vent before I went crazy. :S
Btw, I would like some feed back on this. Am I being to unreasonable? Tell me your thoughts. If I need to seriously change something, lemme know! (:
Ta Ta For Now<3
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Quotes and Photography
I really like reading quotes and looking at photography. Xanga, is an amazing site for this. But, I don't get on there like ever so I am dedicating this post to quotes and photography. I used to read all sad and heartbroken quotes but I have been reading inspirational one lately, so this one is going to mainly have those kind! + Random pictures! (:
-Might I add, none are by me! :P
Life is wonderful. God controls it even
when you think it's lost direction.
You may feel you're going down hill,
but that may be the path upstream.
The truth of the matter is that even
though we don't know where our lives are going,
God did before we even started the journey.
Let everything that has breath praise
the LORD. Praise the LORD.
-- Psalm 150:6
Crying doesn't indicate that you're weak.
Since birth, it has always been a sign
that you are, in fact, alive.
It's okay to not be okay when things
go wrong. But trust that no matter how
many cracks you feel, it will heal.
Better a poor man whose walk is blameless
than a rich man whose ways are perverse.
-- Proverbs 28:6
If you want to find happiness that will last,
set yourself free from the ghosts of the past.
You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble and
surround me with songs of deliverance.
-- Psalm 32:7
Life is fragile, handle with prayer.
Sometimes, we have to let go of what
we want for what we deserve. We can't
always see where the road ahead leads,
but God guarantees there's something
better down it if we just trust in him.
But he said to me,
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my
power is made perfect in weakness."
-- 2 Corinthians 12:9
You're way too young with way too much
life ahead of you to ever believe it won't be okay.
Live in such a way that those who
know you but don't know God will come
to know God because they know you.
And this is my prayer: that your love
may abound more and more in knowledge
and depth of insight, so that you may be
able to discern what is best and may be
pure and blameless until the day of Christ,
-- Philippians 1:9-10
He who kneels before God
can stand before anything.
Every single person has at least
one secret that would break your heart.
If we could just remember this,
I think there would be a lot more
compassion and tolerance in the world.
God is doing a greater work in us,
and that can only come as we learn
to trust him no matter how dark the
days and sleepless the nights.
For it is not those who hear the law who
are righteous in God’s sight, but it is
those who obey the law who will
be declared righteous.
-- Romans 2:13
Draw a line, and live above it.
Then I said to you, “Do not be terrified;
do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God,
who is going before you, will fight for you,
as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes,
and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD
your God carried you, as a father carries his son,
all the way you went until you reached this place.
-- Deuteronomy 1:29-31
How great you are, O Sovereign LORD!
There is no one like you,
and there is no God but you.
-- 2 Samuel 7:22
Just wait your turn, and always try to learn
to love the ones who don't show love in return.
We're just trying to find some color in this
black and white world. Tell me everything will
be alright, walk this way with me into the night.
'Cause you can let it slide, baby just for tonight,
just know that everyone feels broken sometimes.
When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.
-- Ecclesiastes 7:14
But you know happiness can be found
even in the darkest of times, when one
only remembers to turn on the light.
Therefore, since we are receiving
a kingdom that cannot be shaken,
let us be thankful, and so worship
God acceptably with reverence and awe
-- Hebrews 12:28
To understand is to forgive,
even oneself.
Remain in me, and I will remain in you.
No branch can bear fruit by itself;
it must remain in the vine.
Neither can you bear fruit unless
you remain in me.
-– John 15:4
We are given a clean canvas,
the rest; the beautiful design,
is up to you.
Your fears are not walls, but hurdles.
Courage is not the absence of fear,
but the conquering of it.
Sometimes it's easy to feel like you're the only
one in the world who’s struggling, who's frustrated,
or unsatisfied at barely getting by.
But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on;
just find the courage to face it all for another day,
someone or something will find the way and
make it all okay. Because we all need a little help
sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the
world. To remind us that is won’t always be this way.
That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.
Be joyful always; pray continually;
give thanks in all circumstances.
-- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17
Never let your failures get to your heart,
and never let your success get to your head.
If we forgive others,
we free our minds to dwell
on better and brighter things.
And we free our hearts
to feel the love we're made to
instead of the rage we create.
Love the LORD, all his saints!
The LORD preserves the faithful,
but the proud he pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart,
all you who hope in the LORD.
-- Psalm 31:23-24
Joy is what happens to us when we
allow ourselves to recognize
how good things really are.
But you are a shield around me, O LORD;
you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
-- Psalm 3:3
Live for the Lord;
except it's simplicity
for it heals great confusing.
Love the life he gave you,
for he gave it to you for a reason.
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
-- 1 Chronicles 16:34
Don't confuse your path
with your destination.
Just because it's stormy now
doesn't mean you aren't
headed towards sunshine.
I pray also that the eyes of your heart
may be enlightened in order that you may
know the hope to which he has called you,
the riches of his glorious inheritance in the
saints, and his incomparably great
power for us who believe.
-- Ephesians 1:18-19
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or
vain conceit, but in humility consider
others better than yourselves.
Each of you should look not only to
your own interests,
but also to the interests of others.
-- Philippians 2:3-4
There is sadness,
but there is also love.
Choose love, let yourself
move forward and
break free from dark chains.
If you want true success, wish for those
who anger you most to prosper.
This will free you from your anger and help you rise.
for all have sinned and fall short of
the glory of God, and are justified freely
by his grace through the redemption
that came by Christ Jesus.
-- Romans 3:23-24
You can say that life’s not fair,
or you can make a change to it
by saying a prayer.
--Hope you enjoyed. (:
-Might I add, none are by me! :P
Life is wonderful. God controls it even
when you think it's lost direction.
You may feel you're going down hill,
but that may be the path upstream.
The truth of the matter is that even
though we don't know where our lives are going,
God did before we even started the journey.
Let everything that has breath praise
the LORD. Praise the LORD.
-- Psalm 150:6
Since birth, it has always been a sign
that you are, in fact, alive.
It's okay to not be okay when things
go wrong. But trust that no matter how
many cracks you feel, it will heal.
Better a poor man whose walk is blameless
than a rich man whose ways are perverse.
-- Proverbs 28:6
If you want to find happiness that will last,
set yourself free from the ghosts of the past.
You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble and
surround me with songs of deliverance.
-- Psalm 32:7
Life is fragile, handle with prayer.
Sometimes, we have to let go of what
we want for what we deserve. We can't
always see where the road ahead leads,
but God guarantees there's something
better down it if we just trust in him.
But he said to me,
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my
power is made perfect in weakness."
-- 2 Corinthians 12:9
You're way too young with way too much
life ahead of you to ever believe it won't be okay.
Live in such a way that those who
know you but don't know God will come
to know God because they know you.
And this is my prayer: that your love
may abound more and more in knowledge
and depth of insight, so that you may be
able to discern what is best and may be
pure and blameless until the day of Christ,
-- Philippians 1:9-10
He who kneels before God
can stand before anything.
Every single person has at least
one secret that would break your heart.
If we could just remember this,
I think there would be a lot more
compassion and tolerance in the world.
God is doing a greater work in us,
and that can only come as we learn
to trust him no matter how dark the
days and sleepless the nights.
For it is not those who hear the law who
are righteous in God’s sight, but it is
those who obey the law who will
be declared righteous.
-- Romans 2:13
Draw a line, and live above it.
Then I said to you, “Do not be terrified;
do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God,
who is going before you, will fight for you,
as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes,
and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD
your God carried you, as a father carries his son,
all the way you went until you reached this place.
-- Deuteronomy 1:29-31
How great you are, O Sovereign LORD!
There is no one like you,
and there is no God but you.
-- 2 Samuel 7:22
Just wait your turn, and always try to learn
to love the ones who don't show love in return.
We're just trying to find some color in this
black and white world. Tell me everything will
be alright, walk this way with me into the night.
'Cause you can let it slide, baby just for tonight,
just know that everyone feels broken sometimes.
When times are good, be happy;
but when times are bad, consider:
God has made the one as well as the other.
Therefore, a man cannot discover
anything about his future.
-- Ecclesiastes 7:14
But you know happiness can be found
even in the darkest of times, when one
only remembers to turn on the light.
Therefore, since we are receiving
a kingdom that cannot be shaken,
let us be thankful, and so worship
God acceptably with reverence and awe
-- Hebrews 12:28
To understand is to forgive,
even oneself.
Remain in me, and I will remain in you.
No branch can bear fruit by itself;
it must remain in the vine.
Neither can you bear fruit unless
you remain in me.
-– John 15:4
We are given a clean canvas,
the rest; the beautiful design,
is up to you.
Your fears are not walls, but hurdles.
Courage is not the absence of fear,
but the conquering of it.
Sometimes it's easy to feel like you're the only
one in the world who’s struggling, who's frustrated,
or unsatisfied at barely getting by.
But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on;
just find the courage to face it all for another day,
someone or something will find the way and
make it all okay. Because we all need a little help
sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the
world. To remind us that is won’t always be this way.
That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.
Be joyful always; pray continually;
give thanks in all circumstances.
-- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17
Never let your failures get to your heart,
and never let your success get to your head.
If we forgive others,
we free our minds to dwell
on better and brighter things.
And we free our hearts
to feel the love we're made to
instead of the rage we create.
Love the LORD, all his saints!
The LORD preserves the faithful,
but the proud he pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart,
all you who hope in the LORD.
-- Psalm 31:23-24
Joy is what happens to us when we
allow ourselves to recognize
how good things really are.
But you are a shield around me, O LORD;
you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
-- Psalm 3:3
Live for the Lord;
except it's simplicity
for it heals great confusing.
Love the life he gave you,
for he gave it to you for a reason.
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
-- 1 Chronicles 16:34
Don't confuse your path
with your destination.
Just because it's stormy now
doesn't mean you aren't
headed towards sunshine.
I pray also that the eyes of your heart
may be enlightened in order that you may
know the hope to which he has called you,
the riches of his glorious inheritance in the
saints, and his incomparably great
power for us who believe.
-- Ephesians 1:18-19
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or
vain conceit, but in humility consider
others better than yourselves.
Each of you should look not only to
your own interests,
but also to the interests of others.
-- Philippians 2:3-4
There is sadness,
but there is also love.
Choose love, let yourself
move forward and
break free from dark chains.
If you want true success, wish for those
who anger you most to prosper.
This will free you from your anger and help you rise.
for all have sinned and fall short of
the glory of God, and are justified freely
by his grace through the redemption
that came by Christ Jesus.
-- Romans 3:23-24
You can say that life’s not fair,
or you can make a change to it
by saying a prayer.
--Hope you enjoyed. (:
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Forever.
Oh my gosh. It has been forever since I have blogged! So sad. :( Haha. This blog is probably going to be all over the place since it's been awhile. You will have to get used to it, sorry :P
Heather is over, she spent the night last night and went to church with us this morning. Btw, she is very annoying right now. As she narrates my blog. Can I slap her please? Nah, Jk. (:
Music.
I used to listen to like Cute Is What We Aim For, All Time Low, Forever The Sickest Kids, Never Shout Never etc. All the time. Lately though, they are not intriguing at all. I've been listening to country like constantly. I love it. My dad hates it though, so I like to blare it in my room and annoy him when he is home!
Random: Say 'He Home' in a donkey voice. It's hilarious. :P
God!
I haven't had a good relationship with Him at all last year because I was too worried about boys, and friends, and doing my own thing. I came to the realization though that I am SO much happier when I keep that relationship with Him and focus on what HE wants, not me! Last year, I had lots of friends and had something to do every weekend, and most of the time on the week days. I was not happy though, God came last in my life. Now though, He is before everything, or at least most of the time. I am still human. I feel so much closer to Him, and knowing I am helps a lot, but of course. He is God ! (:
Family.
As most know, I do have a nanny. She doesn't like that word but that's what she is. My dad is a truck driver and always gone for around 3 weeks at a time and home for about 3 or 4 days. I seriously HATE it. My mom lived in Farmington but she came back last night because of stuff with some dumb guy. She isn't very stable so I don't see her much. With my dad being gone and rarely seeing my mom, It's just me and my brother, well and Vince. I feel so lonely, as if I don't really have a family.I have friends who only have 1 parent or w.e and they think that i am so lucky, I am in a way. I do have my parents but not really because I rarely see them. It used to not affect me much but lately it has been, considering the fact I don't like my nanny at all! I could seriously go on and on about this topic but I'm changing it. haha.
School.
Omg, so stressful. Seriously I don't like it! I'm doing great in all my classes. . . besides one. Honors Chemistry. Worst. Class. Eva. I had a D+ buuut then I didn't take a test or turn in one lab from being absent, which I need to get on so now it's lower. Like bad. I feel so overwhelmed in there, everyone else is smart and 'gets' what we do. I don't. I am NOT used to that. I am usually one of the bests in my class. Now I'm not even close to it, which is very discouraging. The stuff we have been doing lately has been fairly easy, but I guess I'm not good at it enough to bring my grade up a lot. I'm telling you, if I have an awful grade at the end of this semester in this class I am switching to regular chemistry even though I will feel like such a failure. I want good grades though and taking honors is not helping that. I really just need to seek God with this. I hope I can stay in it, all I can ask is that He gives me the strength, knowledge, and helps me focus to get me through the year in this class with at least a C-! I need an honors class. Well, I don't need one, but I feel like I'm not worth much with out good grades which I know is totally FALSE! I also feel like I'm invisible if I don't look at least half way decent, which again is FALSE. Last bible study, pretty sure it was the last one, maybe the one before? Idk. anyway we basically talking about this. Self Worth. It really helped me actually. Bible Study always helps me to be honest. haha (: I am so glad I get to go there, I love being in that atmosphere and around those girls. I literally WISH I could live with all them. Life we would be less hectic and stressful, and so on. But that's sadly not happening.
Hollie.
I was never really close to her, but I always loved her bubbly personality. It made everyone laugh and smile! She is so optimistic from what I've seen, which is wonderful! Actually the Thursday before she was diagnosed Andrea, Her, and Me were talking at Andreas and I got to know somethings about her that I definitely related to. It was awesome. That night I went home, and God just put Hollie on my heart to be praying for her, I had no idea why but I was like Okay God! So I wrote her name on my mirror under this sticker thing that says "Pray" That's where I put everyone at that I need/want to pray for.Then the next Thursday came around, I found out the news at Bible Study, and like I said before although I didn't know her that well, I felt like my best friend just got diagnosed. I just cried. I contained a lot of my tears though, because I don't like crying in fornt of people but that night I went home and cried more. God really did comfort me though, the overwhelming peace came over me, and I just knew she would be okay especially because she is such a positive person. I've been continuing to pray for Hollie and I know God is with her and comforting her, which all in all comforts me. (: Please Keep Hollie In Your Prayers! And, Buy A SHIRT! (for more info, contact Andrea Anderson!)
Hmm, I'm trying to think of what more to blog about. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . This blog took all day. Literally. One and off I have been working on it. So, I think I'm going to be finished now. Plus, I need to go finish my art project that is DUE TOMORROW! :/ Wish me luck with that one. . haha.
Ta Ta For Now. (:
Heather is over, she spent the night last night and went to church with us this morning. Btw, she is very annoying right now. As she narrates my blog. Can I slap her please? Nah, Jk. (:
Music.
I used to listen to like Cute Is What We Aim For, All Time Low, Forever The Sickest Kids, Never Shout Never etc. All the time. Lately though, they are not intriguing at all. I've been listening to country like constantly. I love it. My dad hates it though, so I like to blare it in my room and annoy him when he is home!
Random: Say 'He Home' in a donkey voice. It's hilarious. :P
God!
I haven't had a good relationship with Him at all last year because I was too worried about boys, and friends, and doing my own thing. I came to the realization though that I am SO much happier when I keep that relationship with Him and focus on what HE wants, not me! Last year, I had lots of friends and had something to do every weekend, and most of the time on the week days. I was not happy though, God came last in my life. Now though, He is before everything, or at least most of the time. I am still human. I feel so much closer to Him, and knowing I am helps a lot, but of course. He is God ! (:
Family.
As most know, I do have a nanny. She doesn't like that word but that's what she is. My dad is a truck driver and always gone for around 3 weeks at a time and home for about 3 or 4 days. I seriously HATE it. My mom lived in Farmington but she came back last night because of stuff with some dumb guy. She isn't very stable so I don't see her much. With my dad being gone and rarely seeing my mom, It's just me and my brother, well and Vince. I feel so lonely, as if I don't really have a family.I have friends who only have 1 parent or w.e and they think that i am so lucky, I am in a way. I do have my parents but not really because I rarely see them. It used to not affect me much but lately it has been, considering the fact I don't like my nanny at all! I could seriously go on and on about this topic but I'm changing it. haha.
School.
Omg, so stressful. Seriously I don't like it! I'm doing great in all my classes. . . besides one. Honors Chemistry. Worst. Class. Eva. I had a D+ buuut then I didn't take a test or turn in one lab from being absent, which I need to get on so now it's lower. Like bad. I feel so overwhelmed in there, everyone else is smart and 'gets' what we do. I don't. I am NOT used to that. I am usually one of the bests in my class. Now I'm not even close to it, which is very discouraging. The stuff we have been doing lately has been fairly easy, but I guess I'm not good at it enough to bring my grade up a lot. I'm telling you, if I have an awful grade at the end of this semester in this class I am switching to regular chemistry even though I will feel like such a failure. I want good grades though and taking honors is not helping that. I really just need to seek God with this. I hope I can stay in it, all I can ask is that He gives me the strength, knowledge, and helps me focus to get me through the year in this class with at least a C-! I need an honors class. Well, I don't need one, but I feel like I'm not worth much with out good grades which I know is totally FALSE! I also feel like I'm invisible if I don't look at least half way decent, which again is FALSE. Last bible study, pretty sure it was the last one, maybe the one before? Idk. anyway we basically talking about this. Self Worth. It really helped me actually. Bible Study always helps me to be honest. haha (: I am so glad I get to go there, I love being in that atmosphere and around those girls. I literally WISH I could live with all them. Life we would be less hectic and stressful, and so on. But that's sadly not happening.
Hollie.
I was never really close to her, but I always loved her bubbly personality. It made everyone laugh and smile! She is so optimistic from what I've seen, which is wonderful! Actually the Thursday before she was diagnosed Andrea, Her, and Me were talking at Andreas and I got to know somethings about her that I definitely related to. It was awesome. That night I went home, and God just put Hollie on my heart to be praying for her, I had no idea why but I was like Okay God! So I wrote her name on my mirror under this sticker thing that says "Pray" That's where I put everyone at that I need/want to pray for.Then the next Thursday came around, I found out the news at Bible Study, and like I said before although I didn't know her that well, I felt like my best friend just got diagnosed. I just cried. I contained a lot of my tears though, because I don't like crying in fornt of people but that night I went home and cried more. God really did comfort me though, the overwhelming peace came over me, and I just knew she would be okay especially because she is such a positive person. I've been continuing to pray for Hollie and I know God is with her and comforting her, which all in all comforts me. (: Please Keep Hollie In Your Prayers! And, Buy A SHIRT! (for more info, contact Andrea Anderson!)
Hmm, I'm trying to think of what more to blog about. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . This blog took all day. Literally. One and off I have been working on it. So, I think I'm going to be finished now. Plus, I need to go finish my art project that is DUE TOMORROW! :/ Wish me luck with that one. . haha.
Ta Ta For Now. (:
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