HOME.!?!

I'm back in Cape! Woooo!. . um, kinda!? Yeah, so I'm really happy to be home, yet I'm not. I'm thinking, and well I am just going to go back to the same old stress of my life. I can't take it!! Uhh. ha. And, I feel so alone out here. My mom lives in a different town, and my dad is always in a different state. It hurts. I don't feel abandoned, I just feel lonely. I miss my family a lot!! So, me and Marisol a.k.a My best frienddd stayed the night at my aunts house all by ourselves because they are in STL! It was funnn. :P I felt all grown up! haha.

I'm supposed to get a dog, (chihuahua). She is 8 months old, house trained, fixed, andddd she has had her shots! But, I'm upset because it all depends on what the landlord says, which is SO UNFAIR, because Anna has had her cats here for a yearr! :/ I will seriously be crushed if my dad says no, because he already approved and I already told savannah I could have it! :O I just hope it all works out. PALEASE GOD! (: hehe. Her name is boots already, but if I can get her still I might name or Bella, or something cute and girly! Any ideas? Trying not to get my hopes up though, which is hard because they got pretty high when my dad accepted! I have been wanting a small dog or a pet for soooo long! I don't wanna be let done. This stinkss! :(

Well, I was going to blog more but I'm losing focus and I only had 4 hours of sleep! (I tried going back to sleep but I couldn't!) haha.

P.S I like saying hehe, but not really. . . . I always feel odd when I say it! xD


Ta Ta for now! (:

Book, Friends, Feelings.

Hey there. (:




Okay so I'm reading this amazing book called 'Captivating' By John and Stasi Eldredge.




It's amazing even though I'm only on the 2nd chapter. EVERY girl/woman should read it.




It's about how every woman ever since they were a little girl has that wanting to be swept off her feet by prince charming and to be 'romanced' and be the beauty in the story, and all that stuff. But how some women cover it up , but it's just the heart of a women to have that, and all this good stuff that is so true. I love it! (:

READ IT GIRLS! (and guys, if wanna know the heart of a woman.<3)>

So, I have some great friends, that I am sooo happy to have. I can talk to them about anything. Its weird but I talk to Tyler a lot. I guess it's so weird because my guy friends that I have, aren't christians, but he is! I go to him for advice and just w.e. and he sends me random bible verses. Like a little devotional. LOL. (: He helps. Truuussst me. Why can't more guys have a relationship with christ?! Things would be better! haha, well more people too. (: and then Andrea, oh lord. She is greattt.! I like how she is honest, even if I don't wanna hear some stuff ;) and then above all, I have my 2 veryyyy best friends (Heather and Marisol)! I can tell them, ANYTHING. Literally, ANYTHING, and they still love me. <3

I love being at my moms! I'm here right now. It's fun visiting herr! She has a new place, and i love it. ! haha I will be sad to go back to cape, yet so happy! I get to see all my friends I have been dying to see all summer. Life would honestly suck without most of the people I have in it. (family and friends) although there are people in it that I just need to erase out of my life, sad to say, but very true. I want to get them out, yet I don't . I guess you could say I'm attached?! Yeah. I am. I'm also afraid that if I cut them out, I won't get other friends. . that no one will accept me, ya know? It's hard. Really. There are people that I wanna hang out with and get to know, they seem fun and like good influences on my life. . . . yet I don't want to take the first step because I'm def afraid of rejection . If someone were to ask me to hang out with them. . I wouldn't be so uneasy I guess. My brain is just so confusing sometimes. Seriously. It's quite annoying too.! haha. Do you ever get nervous over DUMB things? Like nervous or afraid that someone might not want to be your friend because the way you dress? or look? or your family, or other friends you have or even your house!?! Yeah, well I sure do. I think about this a lot. It's so . . . ridiculous of me. But, I guess people really are like that, and I don't want to take chances. Maybe I should though? Hmm, I don't know. I would appreciate helpful input though! (:

P.S I think I was going to say something else, but I can't remember what it was! Oh well.

Ta Ta For Now. (: