Yeah, I think that word does a pretty great job of describing how I have been feeling this ENTIRE week. I know my last post was pretty much me complaining, and I guess this one will sorta be the same. Oh well. I need to vent. I'd rather do it on here where I feel like I'm talking to myself than annoy anyone with my problems. haha.
A lot has changed lately. Well I feel like a lot has. I had a nanny if I didn't say before, because my dad is a truck driver. Long story short, She moved out. I think it was Saturday. I won't go into all the personal details about that though since she moved out unexpectedly. Everyone was planning for it to be in October, but things happen. I can actually say I am SO HAPPY she did move out, because I have my life back, and my home. You think that after almost 3 years of having a nanny I'd get over the feeling of just wanting my dad, my brother, and I in the house alone.. but I didn't. So here are my feelings, I'm extremely happy things are back to "normal" but yet I am really stressed, confused, and overwhelmed by that big sudden change. Practically every room in my house looks different now. I think I feel like this is because my dad is starting his new job soon also, and then school is Thursday and all of this is happening at the SAME time. (I feel like I may just start rambling at not make any sense so stop reading where ever you want.) Here is something selfish of me also, I am worried I won't be able to use the car for school. My dad said I won't for like the first week and a half because I forgot to pay the insurance one day for him while he was gone and I'm not on it right now. I understand that, it just totally sucks. So I'm like ok, that's cool... but now I don't know if I will be able to use it when he starts his new job... and I know this may sound ridiculous but I refuse to ride the bus this year. You haven't been on my bus so of course you wouldn't understand. If you have, you would refuse to ride it also. Hopefully my aunt will take me to school the days my dad can't, or the days I can't use the car also. With my dads new job it's awesome because he will be home, but his work schedule is so confusing. I think it's like 2 days working nights, then 2 days off, then 2 days where he works nights again? Something like that. Oh and guess what I remembered? I start my job next week! It's awesome yet scary and also it's making me nervous because I have school and a job to worry about. I feel like this year will be an awesome year for me I just have to stop getting stressed about every single thing. Especially before something even happens! I'm bad about that. :/ I need to find something to do that calms me when i start freaking out about things.Counting to ten and taking a deep breath doesn't work. haha(: Well I should start blogging more because just after typing this monster I feel a whole lot better already. A big weight lifted off of me. It's just hard sometimes finding the time to do it, and when I have the time I don't feel like doing it. :P I think I'm going to be done for today because it's getting pretty long and I'm starting to ramble, well I think I am.
Oh guess what? This is my last FULL day of summer. Tomorrow I have to go to sleep early (which I don't see how that is going to work out :S) I tried doing that last night and it wasn't working. School starting is definitely bittersweet.
Here is my schedule too. I can't believe I'm a junior already!! It seems like just yesterday I a freshman! It's crazy! Yet super exciting! (:
1. Algebra II
2. Keyboard/Form
3. AP Biology
4. Rec Activities (I'm getting Ceramics II switched here hopefully, I don't want to forget everything I have learned!)
5. American History
6. Newspaper
7. English III
8. Psychology
I'm excited for all my classes. Just kind of stressed about Newspaper, AP Bio, and Psychology. :/ Yes, already. I know. It's crazy and stupid. I'm working on it though. I'll take all the prayer I can get ;) forreal (: haha.
Oh also when I find some time I will try to blog about my summer a little, not too exciting though :P
