Overwhelmed.

Yeah, I think that word does a pretty great job of describing how I have been feeling this ENTIRE week. I know my last post was pretty much me complaining, and I guess this one will sorta be the same. Oh well. I need to vent. I'd rather do it on here where I feel like I'm talking to myself than annoy anyone with my problems. haha.

A lot has changed lately. Well I feel like a lot has. I had a nanny if I didn't say before, because my dad is a truck driver. Long story short, She moved out. I think it was Saturday. I won't go into all the personal details about that though since she moved out unexpectedly. Everyone was planning for it to be in October, but things happen. I can actually say I am SO HAPPY she did move out, because I have my life back, and my home. You think that after almost 3 years of having a nanny I'd get over the feeling of just wanting my dad, my brother, and I in the house alone.. but I didn't. So here are my feelings, I'm extremely happy things are back to "normal" but yet I am really stressed, confused, and overwhelmed by that big sudden change. Practically every room in my house looks different now. I think I feel like this is because my dad is starting his new job soon also, and then school is Thursday and all of this is happening at the SAME time. (I feel like I may just start rambling at not make any sense so stop reading where ever you want.) Here is something selfish of me also, I am worried I won't be able to use the car for school. My dad said I won't for like the first week and a half because I forgot to pay the insurance one day for him while he was gone and I'm not on it right now. I understand that, it just totally sucks. So I'm like ok, that's cool... but now I don't know if I will be able to use it when he starts his new job... and I know this may sound ridiculous but I refuse to ride the bus this year. You haven't been on my bus so of course you wouldn't understand. If you have, you would refuse to ride it also. Hopefully my aunt will take me to school the days my dad can't, or the days I can't use the car also. With my dads new job it's awesome because he will be home, but his work schedule is so confusing. I think it's like 2 days working nights, then 2 days off, then 2 days where he works nights again? Something like that. Oh and guess what I remembered? I start my job next week! It's awesome yet scary and also it's making me nervous because I have school and a job to worry about. I feel like this year will be an awesome year for me I just have to stop getting stressed about every single thing. Especially before something even happens! I'm bad about that. :/ I need to find something to do that calms me when i start freaking out about things.Counting to ten and taking a deep breath doesn't work. haha(: Well I should start blogging more because just after typing this monster I feel a whole lot better already. A big weight lifted off of me. It's just hard sometimes finding the time to do it, and when I have the time I don't feel like doing it. :P I think I'm going to be done for today because it's getting pretty long and I'm starting to ramble, well I think I am.

Oh guess what? This is my last FULL day of summer. Tomorrow I have to go to sleep early (which I don't see how that is going to work out :S) I tried doing that last night and it wasn't working. School starting is definitely bittersweet.

Here is my schedule too. I can't believe I'm a junior already!! It seems like just yesterday I a freshman! It's crazy! Yet super exciting! (:

1. Algebra II
2. Keyboard/Form
3. AP Biology
4. Rec Activities (I'm getting Ceramics II switched here hopefully, I don't want to forget everything I have learned!)
5. American History
6. Newspaper
7. English III
8. Psychology
I'm excited for all my classes. Just kind of stressed about Newspaper, AP Bio, and Psychology. :/ Yes, already. I know. It's crazy and stupid. I'm working on it though. I'll take all the prayer I can get ;) forreal (: haha.

Oh also when I find some time I will try to blog about my summer a little, not too exciting though :P

Parents=A Pain.

My dad just got home last night, and this is very sad to say but today I was already getting sick of him. How ridiculous is that!? I feel awful for feeling that way,  but I can't help it!

We already got in an argument. It was extremely dumb too. I left my blender out and apart, you know how they have those sharp blades? Yeah. That's what started this all. He started yelling at me because it was out, and he asked me why it was apart so I told him I didn't know because I haven't used it in awhile and the last time I touched it, it was on the dryer rack thingy so whoever took it off of there set it on the counter with out putting it together. I mean, I know it's mine but I don't think I deserve to be yelled at when I didn't know it was like that! He continued to yell, get all angry, worked up, and what-not so I stood up for myself! I'm sorry but I'm not the type of person to sit back and get yelled at, I say something. Maybe I should work on that, especially because he is my father, BUT does that mean it gives HIM the right to yell and cuss at ME!? JUST because he is the PARENT!?? I definitely don't think so! I get so angry at him, because he tells me I am disrespecting him but I guess he doesn't see that he is disrespecting me also! I have told him before that when he yells and curses at me, that shows disrepect to me. Guess what he said? He said, I don't care. I am the parent.  hfausdvbhiowulebvilasueb!?!?!?!? So sorry but that is not a good excuse to me! 

-Okay sorry you had to listen to me bicker about this. But it happens a lot, and I really needed to vent before I went crazy. :S

Btw, I would like some feed back on this. Am I being to unreasonable? Tell me your thoughts. If I need to seriously change something, lemme know! (:

Ta Ta For Now<3

Dog Mostly. (:

Yes, I am aware I haven't blogged in awhile. . oh well. 
Do you ever feel like. . . sorry for using this word, retarded while blogging? ever? I do sometimes. . It feels like I'm talking to no one, and that no one is going to read this!? haha

So I am SUPER excited for tomorrow! I am getting my chihuahua! It's a girl, and I can't wait to dress her up in little outfits. <3>

AND, I am super excited for today! My dad is coming home! He has been gone for like almost 4 weeks now! :/ It stinkss! So, I don't think this is going to be a very long post because I only know a couple of things to blog about, I always get these fantastic ideas, but I'm to busy to blog when they come. Not cool.

Got to go clean the room! :/

ta ta for now!(: