Forever/Update on my life

I definitely don't feel accomplished. I haven't blogged in almost 3 months. :O 3 MONTHS?!
Well, It's not like I have anything to blog about anyways.. summer has been really good so far. I've been to the zoo, and babysat. That's pretty much the biggest things that have happened so far. Exciting right? Not. haha I have been to the water park a lot... like way too much. haha! I finally look darker though! Not as dark as I'd like, but I'd rather not get skin cancer! We are hopefully going to Six Flags before the summer is up, or maybe some water park in Eddyville.(sp?) Not for sure yet though! I am actually thinking of a lot of things I could blog about right now, but I don't know how to bring them up... hmm.. maybe I just will write a list. haha

• My cousin got in a bad accident. (Bike accident) She's 13. She was riding her bike like about a week and a half ago (if that) and she was wearing flip flops. She some how fell and her foot got caught in her spokes or whatever and they put a huge gash on the ball of her foot. Almost can see the muscle! :( I feel so bad for her! She is in pain sometimes, and she's on crutches, she probably can't go to six flags this year, she is now in the house all the time, and she has to miss out on her basketball and cheer leading! She is definitely one tough girl though and taking it all so well! I just pray she has quick healing! 
• I have been job hunting. So far I have applied to AT LEAST 10 places, but I have about 30 written down on a piece of paper. Ha! I really hope I get a job! This is so stressful! Please pray that I do! (:
• Rose, this little girl that is basically my sister, had a karate tournament like a week ago! She got first place in katas and sparring! I'm so proud of her! It was really fun watching her compete! I know this isn't important, but there were quite a few good looking guys there too! hehe!
• My dog has tape worms! Agghhhhh, it's so sad! Especially because I don't want to be around her really! She has an appointment though at the vet today! yay! Last night I didn't want her sleeping with me because she has worms so we borrowed a big cage for her to be in from my Aunt... I keep her in it most of the day too but give her breaks because I suuurrre don't want worms anywhere. EW! :/
• Last.... I'm going into 11th grade. Guess what? I'm already getting freaked out. I really hope I can handle this year a lot better than last and keep my stress level under control! School just sometimes feels so unbearable! I'm especially getting worked up because I plan on having a job also!
• Justin Bieber. I STILL LOVE HIM. <3 I am hoping to get his AMAZING Someday perfume here soooon! I absolutely adore the smell, and the lotion of it is sparkly! How great is that?! Extremely Great. (: Also the Never Say Never Director's Fan Cut is coming out on DVD soon! I can't wait to get that either! I love being a belieber! *sigh*

I think I covered pretty much everything for now! It feels so good to blog after such a long time! (:

p.s IT'S ABOUT 2 MONTHS UNTIL I'M 17! I'm getting older so quick! :O

Guess what? Quotes. &Pictures.

It was the sort of beauty you feel so deeply it becomes contagious and somehow makes you feel beautiful too.

 

For now we are young, let us lay in the sun and count every beautiful thing we can see

 

"The suns always up somewhere", she said.
"And even a broken clocks right twice a day." 

 

 

  And everything you were ever restless about, anything that had ever given you angst is quieted to stillness.

It was one of those uncommon moments. Those times when you don't wish for something else. For even one thing to be different. When you have no other needs and no worriers. Where your insides are calm.

Sometimes I think that we waste our words,
we waste our moments and we don't take the time
to say the things that are in our hearts
when we have the chance.

Every so often I can hardly remember the sound of your voice or the awkward rhythm in your walk, I'm losing you all over again

Memories are silent things.

be thin. get straight a's. play a sport and be good at it. have a job. get into a good college. have a social life. have a boyfriend. the list is endless. screw being perfect. who created this standard for what the perfect teenage girl is supposed to be like? i don't know. but someone has got to end it. so starting now, be what you want. be anything but perfect because perfect cannot be achieved and doesn't exist. 

because sometimes people do actually feel that way. sometimes your life feels like its caving in on you. sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. saying "i don't want to exist" isn't saying "i want to go die". it's saying "i wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel". i don't think there's anything wrong with that. and if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i needed to know that i meant something, anything to you. but what i got was nothing, absolutely nothing. and it's funny the things you realize when someone walks away. at first you feel as though it's your fault. feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. and then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. that it's his loss, that you are so much better without that one boy who didn't ever care. you live and you learn, that's how it is.

i can't promise to always be there. and i can't promise to be your happiness. but i can promise to take care of you. and i can promise to be all that i can be. and i can promise that i'll try my best.

i'm gonna smile more than i should and laugh more than i knew i could. and when they ask me why, i'll tell them that i don't wanna die dead.

it's amazing. people grow so used to the dark, they start to like it. the curtains blocking out the light are comforting to them. the dark makes them happy. but really it's just an illusion. when the curtains are gone, and everything's light, you see things you never even knew where there, and you really start to appreciate them. of course, they were there before, but you never took the time to look.

we go to school every day. we learn pointless things, but we are never taught how to love ourselves. we aren't taught how to make moments last. but i think the most unfair thing, is that at the end of high school, we are tested on something that we were never taught. we have to stand in front of each other and say goodbye.

there's no such thing as a grown up. we move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own, but the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. we get bigger, we get taller, we get older, but for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids running around the playground trying desperately to fit in.

-grey's anatomy

so now, all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead. thing to remember is if we're all alone, then we're all together in that too.

-p.s. i love you

it doesn't matter anymore; i guess things happen for a reason. tears eventually fade and one day everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be. moving on is a process and you have to promise yourself that you're really ready to let go.

wow, this definitely had a mixture of emotions in it...oh well! haha (:

Rain, Rain, Go Away...

Almost all my blog posts start off with how I haven't blogged in forever.This is the same. The usual stuff. I haven't been on because well, school, I haven't felt like it, and whatever other excuses I can come up with, you know. Anyways I'm not going to catch everyone up, because nothing new has really happened, and if it has it must not be that important because I can't even remember.

I will say it has been raining for, like, 10 days. I am not exaggerating AT ALL. I don't know the exact day it started to rain, but it was awhile ago. There has been tons of tornado watches/warnings, severe thunderstorm watches/warnings, and flood watches/warnings. . It has not been fun. I don't complain as much as most people about the rain because for the most part, I enjoy it. Call me crazy. It's so pretty though, and the sound it makes is soothing, and I like the smell. After 10 or more days though, you get pretty tired of it. The good thing was that most of our weekend was rain free! I'm sure everyone enjoyed that. Now it's Sunday after noon and the rain decides to strike again. I was in the parking lot of Schnucks (is that how you spell it?) and I saw a super cool umbrella. It was dome shaped and clear. I decided, I WANT ONE. Then when I got home I was on Google, I love Google, looking at umbrellas, and rain boots, and raincoats and found some I really liked that I'm going to show..

I absolutely love this umbrella. I bet it's cool to look up in the sky when it's raining while under this thing, and I guarantee it doesn't flip up like today's umbrellas. I was reading on where I found this one and she said these types of umbrellas were popular in the 60's...oh that makes me love that time period even more! She has some others on there too, like the green one above this one, it's adorable...and I also really like the the 2nd one after this umbrella. I'm starting to like umbrellas a lot. haha(:

I found a lot of cute rain boots I liked, but these were my favorite! I need to invest in a pair of cute rain boots, I never really though much of them until today....honestly. haha :P

Okay these peacock rain boots, are actually pretty cute. I think so anyways. They are different, buuuut I like them.

Okay, the rain boots in this picture are adorable, but I also kind of like how the bride had her bridesmaids wear rain boots, it's creative. A lot of people wouldn't do that, but I think it's a good idea..(I found this picture here , I liked what she said about it raining on your wedding day.) also if you haven't noticed, I like the rain boots with the buckles on the sides. haha(:

For the first outfit up there, I like everything besides the boots. I personally think they are pretty ugly. haha.. the 2nd one though, I love all together. I couldn't find many rain coats I really liked besides these ones.

Since I'm signing off of here in a minute, I want to ask everyone to keep everyone that went through the bad weather in their prayers. People lost their homes, and even lives due to tornados. A lot of peoples houses were damaged because of the flooding and storms and their belongings were ruined, it's sad to think about. I would be devastated if that were to happen to my family, but thank God it didn't. Oh, and also don't blame God for the bad things that happened/happen to these people....or to you. Anytime. He said bad things will happen to the just and unjust...

Short and Sweet

I just feel like making a short blog post about what I'm doing. Creative eh? Yeah, not so much.

I'm watching this . . . .

 I love this show! I like watching all the creative challenges they are put up too, and seeing how they make them work. The one I just finished watching they had to make a toilet cake, and a denim cake! Of course, they ended up looking great in the end. (:

I am alsoooo checking out some TOMS shoes, I love them and I want a pair so bad! They come in so many different styles and patterns, it's great! haha. I feel bad for asking my dad to get me some though. SO I am planning on getting some job applications this week, and trying to get a job. I need money! And of course I want money :P

yeah, like I said SHORT POST.

bye. (:

Never Say Never (From The Original Motion Picture)

Okay so I came across this video. and I am OBSESSED. I'm going to see NEVER SAY NEVER tomorrow, whether plans with my cousin or friends work out or not, I AM GOING! (: I have been waiting for this movie forever! It's finally here! YAYY!!!

Here is the video. MUST. WATCH. NOW. [and I recommend watching it over and over, ;)]:


http://www.youtube.com/user/kidrauhl?blend=1&ob=4


P.S GO SEE THE MOVIE! You won't regret it. It's already my FAVE movie and I haven't even seen it yet. <3


Oh, guess what? I have a goal this year. It's going to a JUSTIN BIEBER CONCERT AND SITTING IN ONE OF THE FRONT ROWS. I don't care how much money it takes. I'm hopefully going to accomplish this. But, I should start with getting a job. ;P